praying really works.. i've gotten my justice.. but im not sticking around... choochay, you have ur choochie.. like what ive sed, ive been living w/o him and its been the best decision ive made ever. God is really just and He protected me from my enemies =) ive said sorry but its in the nature of those who are selfrighteous not to forgive or ask forgiveness for that matter.. its all good =) things are peacful now

Psalm 25

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To thee, O LORD, I lift up my soul. O my God, in thee I trust, let me not be put to shame; let not my enemies exult over me. Yea, let none that wait for thee be put to shame; let them be ashamed who are wantonly treacherous. Make me to know thy ways, O LORD; teach me thy paths. Lead me in thy truth, and teach me, for thou art the God of my salvation; for thee I wait all the day long. Be mindful of thy mercy, O LORD, and of thy steadfast love, for they have been from of old. Remember not the sins of my youth, or my transgressions; according to thy steadfast love remember me, for thy goodness' sake, O LORD! Good and upright is the LORD; therefore he instructs sinners in the way. He leads the humble in what is right, and teaches the humble his way. All the paths of the LORD are steadfast love and faithfulness, for those who keep his covenant and his testimonies. For thy name's sake, O LORD, pardon my guilt, for it is great. Who is the man that fears the LORD? Him will he instruct in the way that he should choose. He himself shall abide in prosperity, and his children shall possess the land. The friendship of the LORD is for those who fear him, and he makes known to them his covenant. My eyes are ever toward the LORD, for he will pluck my feet out of the net. Turn thou to me, and be gracious to me; for I am lonely and afflicted. Relieve the troubles of my heart, and bring me out of my distresses. Consider my affliction and my trouble, and forgive all my sins. Consider how many are my foes, and with what violent hatred they hate me. Oh guard my life, and deliver me; let me not be put to shame, for I take refuge in thee. May integrity and uprightness preserve me, for I wait for thee. Redeem Israel, O God, out of all his troubles.

happy and free

last night i prayed really hard for God to take away all the hatred all the anger in my heart. i dont really like having enemies so i started with ***, i asked God if i should continue staying mad at him. i asked for i sign ad i go my anser.. *** called this morning but i was hesitant to pick up. i asked for another sign and it gave me the same anser. so i finally reply and ask that we talk to give this all closure. for the insecure one who's waitng for me to fail, you beter just shut up coz u'l just get pahiya agen. anyway yeah we had lunch and i brot some of his stuff that he left with me. it sort of felt good to say everything and let go of all that excess baggage. bittersweet. but its something i had to do to completely let go with no hard feelings. as for "stop_lying_to_urself", im not mad at her but a little hurt that she'd meddle in her friends own battle. ive known "stop_lying_to_urself" since gradeschool infact we were friends back in grade three and i remember beating up the boys who teased her "barney's cornbeef". honestly, you should've have thought first before you started calling names coz it wasnt you i was fighting with. you're entitled to your own opinion and so are my friends but they were'nt haughty enough to meddle in this too becuase they knew it wasnt their business except mine and the ones involved in the issue. but for watever its worth, im sorry for what i said about you. i wasnt mad to begin with and thats up to you if you want to hate. as for kara, i have forgiven her whether or not she wants to be forgiven. i just cant keep carrying all this anger. its not healthy and i know im not at folt as much as she is. she knew wat she was doing wasnt right and yet she continued to do so. i never did anything directly and purpousely to her back when this all began (early college). my only mistake was stooping down and fighting back. i couldnt let her step on me anymore. like what she said "you can't always be nice to everyone bea you have to stand up for urself". and thats just what i did. anyway its all water under the bridge. il admit there's still a little anger left. im only human. hopefuly this little left will go away soon. im working on it =)
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on a lightner note, i've been wanting to take up fishing for the longest time. hehe now that i'm free and single, i can take up everything i've been wanting to coz nobody is occupying my time anymore =) fishing.. sounds dorky.. hehe my dad and my brothers used to fish when we'd go to montemar and we'd eat what they caught for dinner.. or surfing in la union or maybe arnis? haha kc idol ko si lito lapid jaskeeding =) im excited! to go back to theater dancing performing =) flamenco, salsa i duno. life's great =) no stress, no burden, no worries. im loving it! and im back on track..
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school's been fun even if its really early in the morning.. i love love love cooking =) and i love feeding people! i can just see myself being a dedicated homemaker hehe diferent strokes for diferent folks. there are some who are really succesfull but not happy deep down inside.. and those who have all the money in the world but still cant fill in the void with material satisfactions. i duno i just want a simple family, a simple contented life.. anyways, x-mas is just around the corner and this year for sure will be a great one.. even if the whole economy is under crisis, lets not forget that the true meaning of x-mas is sharing and love. its not about how many gifts you get and how much your ninangs and ninongs give you, what's important is that the family is all together laughing and having a good time.. =)

can i do it?

im seriously thinking of becoming a vegetarian. i love animals too much and the other night coming home there was a big truck lot of chickens infront of me and i just started weeping. felt so bad for them and i started reminicing about my two pet chickens. parang sa movie, slow-mo and my sad music sa background..hihi how ironic, the next day i had chicken fingers and chicken adobo. hmmm... im gonna try talaga force myself to eat gulay only.. sna kayo ko =)

3 names you go by:

1. bey
2. bei
3. chiquitita

3 screen names you have had:

1. prokopyo jones
2. madcow
3. cougarette alyas baby cougar

3 physical things you like about yourself:

1. waist
2. my butt
3. my ankles

3 physical things you don’t like about yourself:

1. thighs and arms
2. height
3. feet

3 parts of your heritage:

i'm half pinoy, half spanish ?

3 things that scare you:

1. spiders
2. cancer
3. going to hell


3 things of your everyday essentials:

1. baby cologne
2. water bottle
3. tissue paper

3 of your favorite musical artists:

1. u2 and sting
2. sarah brightman (in phantom of the opera)
3. andrew e. (hahaha humanap ka ng panget!....at ibigin mong tunay)

3 of your favorite songs:

1. tao by sampaguita
2. highschool life oh my highschool life by ate shawie
3. anak ni luningning by denmark

3 things you want in a relationship:

1. money
2. adoration
3. servitude HAHAHAHA

3 physical things about the opposite sex that appeals to you:

1. a GIANT heart and very very LONG patience =)
2. perky butt
3. slender legs and bony feet

3 of your favorite hobbies:

1. cooking
2. singing
3. laughing

3 careers you’re considering/you’ve considered:

1. nun
2. vet
3. adicct!.........sa pagmamahal hehe

3 places you want to go on a vacation:

1. under the sea
2. over the rainbow
3. hawaii

3 kid’s names you like:

1. bruno
2. magnus
3. boggart
4. jograd
5. engelbert

3 things you want to do before you die:

1. pray
2. repent
3. forgive

3 ways that you are stereotypically a boy/girl:

BOYS
1. matakaw sa kanin
2. sweaty
3. mabaho

GIRLS
1. fickle minded
2. wishy washy
3. and a flake

3 celeb crushes:

1. george clooney
2. jhon lloyd cruz
3. undertaker (wrestler)

3 people you would like to take this quiz:

1. tito
2. vic
3. and joey

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